OK, so I missed a day, maybe 2. It's been a weird kind of day. I felt so intense about metaphysical stuff, and today I just feel unfocused. We went to the home show, would like to remodel the kitchen, would like new floors, would like a new patio and revamp in the back yard. Looked, met some vendors who we liked, but I have been extremely unsuccessful at settling on any one idea. As soon as I get close to an idea, it floats away. An example of this is the kitchen. I know that I want some kind of island, and I know that I have had a vision of what might work, but today I couldn't see it for my life. I feel the same about the metaphys stuff. I listen to hayhouse radio and some of the folks out there are just plain kooks. Not all. There are some who seem brilliant to me. But when I meet or encounter an individual who is so distasteful to me, then I feel as if the entire field is distasteful. Which isn't true. What was working was starting to do some imagery. So I should try to do more of this. How? Questions, no answers, no focus on how to find the answer. Who am I and where am I going? Is this just a weekend mood and the metaphysical was a reaction to a bad day at work? Or without the work crap in my face maybe I don't need imagery as much? It doesn't make sense to draw your sword when the enemy isn't even on the horizon....Is that it? Maybe the weekend being more leisurely puts me at rest from the goal d'jour? But then when the stress starts up again, why is it that the goal that looked good last week doesn't look good any more. That's an idea. I know that this week's idea was imagery and alternative medicine and becoming a healer. With that thought now written down, I can look back on it in a week to see what came to the fore in the subsequent week. I'll be watching.